I ain't been the same for a long long time
I been tryna find sight in this world that's so blind
But I been hypnotized by this mess I call life
That I don’t think ill ever go back and rewind
I been in my bag
Tryna go and escape
So depressed in this world
Don’t know how to behave
Found love in a girl
Ruined that shit in a day
Now my mind has unfurled
And I’m lost in my ways
Maybe I need time
Or maybe I need space
But I been off my grind
Taking codeine to the face
Take me back when I
Didn’t struggle every day
My life was a blessing
I was so high outer space
Now I’m in the booth
Really tryna get this going
Done playing round
Done laughing and joking
I cannot be found
I’m cold my heart is broken
So I just need to bounce
Grab the grip and reload it
Put it to my brain
Its the end of my days
Squeezing on the trigger
Till my memories erased
Done with all this pain
No one else can relate
So much on my mind
I'd be better in the grave
I ain't been the same for a long long time
I been tryna find sight in this world that's so blind
But I been hypnotized by this mess I call life
That I don’t think ill ever go back and rewind
I hope that one day
I can find another way
To be happy in this world
When the sky is always grey
No one seems to care
When they know you’re not ok
They just push you to the side
And they try to keep away
Once I wake up I take a bottle to the face
Roll another blunt to numb
All the thoughts inside my brain
I been paranoid
Thinking ima fade away
That's the reason for the clips
Laying in my ash tray
When I was unemployed
I was tryna get paid
Selling codeine out the bottle
Pushing quarters and some 8ths
I knew I had to make it
Trying hard to pave a way
It was tough being the brokest kid on westerly lane
I hated myself
And no one ever knows it
These emotions overwhelm me
So I try overdosing
No one seems to help me
When I’m at my lowest
Ima keep on chasing dreams
Till they all notice
Cause now I’m at the bottom
Yea the lowest of the low
Can't seem to move on from
These demons in my soul
They keep telling me I’m weak
When I know I’m full uh hope
I just need to change my ways
From the man I used to know
I ain't been the same for a long long time
I been tryna find sight in this world that's so blind
But I been hypnotized by this mess I call life
That I don’t think ill ever go back and rewind
I ain't been the same for a long long time
I been tryna find sight in this world that's so blind
But I been hypnotized by this mess I call life
That I don’t think ill ever go back and rewind
