It's 2 in the morning
And I'm in the studio
With so many things on my mind
And I gotta let it go
Some people think my life is perfect
But they just don't really know
That I'm crying on the inside
And nobody really knows
I got abandonment issues
My father come round then leave
Then tell me he didn't want me
When I was only eighteen
And then I found out he died
When I was just twenty-three
There's just so much to the story
But I'll come back to that, see
I just love this music
But the politics of music can be fucked up sometimes
People say they love you
But secretly out here plotting for your demise
Sometimes I feel depressed
Damn I said it
Wondering if I'll ever be that superstar within
But I can't let that get the best of me, oh
And I got problems sharing my feelings
And I'd rather hold it in until I'm bleeding
Sometimes I blame myself for walking out and leaving
When my mother told me go follow my dreams, and
She had cancer
And I was going to LA to make things happen
Get a record deal and tell her no more stressin'
We gon get the best doctors
You ain't gonna worry Mama, oh
But this part, this part I'll never get over
It plays like over and over
I'd get a phone call
My brother on the line
Telling me to come home
Mama don't look fine
Thinking to myself she gon be just fine
And then my cousin gets on the line
(Yo, yo, Los,
I don't know how to tell you this, but um,
She gone
Yeah um, she passed away
I'm so sorry man
I'm so sorry)
No, no, no, no
Oh no
No no no,
No no no, no oh
No oh
And since she been gone
I'm only a shell of what I used to be
No my life ain't perfect
Ooo
Having so much pain in my life
There must be a reason I'm here now
So I'm talking to you
Yeah I'm talking to you
Yeah I'm talking to you
Ohh, Ohh, Ohh, Yeah
