Yeah
This is just an insight of what it's like to be in my mind
Just to give you a little preview, of what it's like to be me
Let me tell you what it's like inside of my head
Every morning wake up, wrong side of the bed
Living with anxiety, brain always looking ahead
Every thought, every feeling, always being misled
Memories from young I still think about today
Thoughts so hung that they lead me astray
Mind so stung that it's starting to decay
You'd think by now that it's got nothing left to eat away
Analyzing everything, anxiety thicken it
I'll admit that I'm starting to get sick of it
You know that thing you said to me weeks ago
I was thinking about a couple of days ago
Don't know why, it just popped up into my head
I can't lie, my thoughts are filled with dread
Go through the whole day, forever rethink
Why is bedtime when your mind wants to sink
Don't get me started on the self esteem
One day I start to feel like I'm serene
Feel like a king I can take on the whole world
Next day I'm nothing and I'm taken up for a whirl
It's crazy how a couple of thoughts can do that
Make you feel tough and then suddenly feel flat
I can't help it, it's just the way that I am
I've tried so hard but my heads like an exam
Why am I always stuck in my own mind
Sometimes I wish I could just rewind
Back to the good old days not feeling like this
Pessimistic thoughts aren't easy to dismiss
Being optimistic is a tough challenge
When all my thoughts are stuck imbalanced
It's hard when pain is all that's been spread
But this is what it feels like inside of my head
Let me tell you why it's so hard to open up
Selective mutism, couldn't even start up on
Why I feel this way, would you know what to say
Do you know the way? I'm drowning every day
I always think that I can fight my own battles
But when my minds a demon, I can't unravel
Why negativity lives in my head rent free
If only it was easy just to see what my problem is
I can't determine for certain if it's the vermin in my head causing me the burden
But I'm just a human being working on my well-being
So I can start seeing and stop feeling like it's the end of the world
When I go through hardships and start to kill these trips down memory lane stuck on replay
And start stripping down every pain in my brain so I can gain the domain that I need to overlay
In my head so that I can finally spread
The positivity that I so far dread
But it all starts with loving yourself
Coming to terms with who you are as well as
Sitting tight and just being patient, patient
Going out there and finding motivation
Go through the emotions and let yourself mourn
So you can come out stronger and be reborn
This isn't a cry for help I promise you
This is me being honest to the listeners who can
Relate to my problems and point of view
And understand what all this feels like to go through
I'm working on myself day by day
I'm learning day by day to find the way but
It's hard when pain is all that's been spread
But this is just an insight of what it's like to be in my head
