Yeah
I have been sunken in fear
Keepin' this shit for too long now and shit I got voices I hear
But I never panic even if it feels like something is near
And I didn't know that by thinking it over will somehow affect my intelligence
I've been irrelevant f*ck this impediment Wanna get back to my element
How do I conquer
If I am acting a bonker
F*ck it I don't even know what I am fond of
Give me pen or a marker
So I can write about life
Battling the fear with the use of a pen and a mic
I wanted to be at the top but I'm scared of the height
Cause sometimes the demon invites at the highest moments of life
I never let them in
Positivity sometimes I am loosing it
But I ain't loosing shit
I'm tired of listening
And this fucking life bro that I am lingering
But I ain't giving in
F*ck all this misery
Let be the fear do remain
Somewhere like 5 out 10
Yeah Life used to be fearsome
And it is always in you son
So tell me now what do you fear?
What are your fears in life
That keep you terrified
And wouldn't leave your mind
When you sleep at night?
Well come closer cause I'm about tell you mine
And I'm hoping that you will also feel the vibe
See I had my child
When I was 21
Thought I wouldn't survive
from all the shit I've done
As the eldest son
I was as good as gone
It had gotten to a point
Where I held a gun
I almost pulled that trigger
Voice in my head said id rather be dead
Cause I was a fuckin failure
Toke some paraphernalia
Rolling dope with the bros just to cope with my dilemma huh
Battling with anxiety
Brought to me by my reality
So I searched for relief
Then I leaned to the leaves for the peace that it gives temporarily
(Uhh)
But it hit me like epiphany
All the things that I've been through were meant for me
It was written on the stars
They were meant to be
It was not an accident it was destiny
(Uhh)
Now I got my own family
And I promise I will love them endlessly
But I still feel the fear right inside of me
What if I fail to be the man that I want to be?
Damn
