Hundred feet up, dizzy in the head
Legs off a ledge, dangling by a thread
But I see my end sitting so close
Flirting with the ground so far below
I just wanna rest six feet beneath it
Or end up as a stain on the pavement
Either way, I feel death breathing down my neck
I'm a wreck
I lost my job
All because I stepped away for a lost cause
Drugs run my life
Dope is a knife
Stabbing me deep
Putting out the light
I was holding high up
Now I fucked my life up
I can hear voices in my head
"Silly little boy, go ahead"
Fall apart
Collapse now
Become debris
Do it now
The lights of the city watch me
Unbothered entirely
I can't motivate myself to jump
Even though I'm so tired of the fucking
Wind as it seems to push, me
Entertained by me struggling
Even though I wanna fight this
I can hear my thoughts hiss
"Everything has gone wrong
I don't see why I should be around anymore
Pain is on top, making me its whore"
Motivating me, whispering to me
"Drugs are your safe, haven, don't you see?
Nobody cares for you the same way that you do for them"
Even though I wanna jump
I don't think I can
Fall apart
(I'm not gonna)
Collapse now
(Still, I won't)
Become debris
(I don't wanna)
Do it now
So I get down
Descend the stairs
Back to my apartment
Where I sit and stare
At the wall
Don't care at all
Lay on my back
Let myself fall
Apart
