Is this really what you want from me
I am lonely cause I had to be
I don't wanna say it over and over
Taking drugs hate being sober
I just need to carry on
Need to get my money up
You are a distraction
I can see that you don't give a f*ck
But you know I'm not giving up
When I was young
I had a dream I was gonna grow up all alone
I started to talk about my life
Like how I found this shit on my own
Got scars on my heart
When we were apart
It was hard to talk on the phone
I needed to vent
I couldn't tell nobody
So, I had to write this song
I had nobody to take me serious
I'm alone
I been backstabbed too many times
I couldn't even show when I was in sown
I been wondering why this shit happened to me
Back then no one took control of me
They did not believe in me
They said I wouldn't make it
They didn't have faith in me
I'm thinking ahead of my future
I don't need y'all to ruin it with these rumors
I can't even control my own sense of humor
All this depressed shit gots to go it hurt like a tumor
Is this really what you want from me
I am lonely cause I had to be
I don't wanna say it over and over
Taking drugs hate being sober
I just need to carry on
Need to get my money up
You are a distraction
I can see that you don't give a f*ck
But you know I'm not giving up
I got love on my mind
But I got hate in my heart
Them n***** left and said
That I wasn't doing my part
I don't like the life that I have
I just wanna restart
It's time to let go of everybody
I just need some time apart
Suicidal thoughts
I told y'all n***** I'm a boss
They keep treating me like I'm some kid
Playing at the sandbox
This is not what I wanna do
They been acting brand new
I got emotions I can't even tell my bros about
Cause they don't have a clue
Laid back on my bed back home
Thinking how the way shit was
I told my sister she was fake and not a real one
Just because
Nobody can tell me shit
While I'm still healing from this pain
I asked God could he help me
Cause I couldn't get inside my brain
Is this really what you want from me
I am lonely cause I had to be
I don't wanna say it over and over
Taking drugs hate being sober
I just need to carry on
Need to get my money up
You are a distraction
I can see that you don't give a f*ck
But you know I'm not giving up
