I never thought I'd be a victim
I was raped when I was 7 and I lost faith in the system
Day after day I felt like he was booze the way he was addicted
He told me if I told someone he would take away what I was gifted
What I felt when I was 7 I'm 17 And i still feel it
I was raped by my soccer coach that's why im losing I trust
Nobody knew behind closed doors what he does
Every night I hear his voice when he says it's only us
Being robbed of your innocence and purity hurts so much
At that age and point in time I was filled with hatred
For those who can relate knows how it feels to be violated
They say time is the best healer and I'm actually losing paitence
Let me tell you the story let me tell you what happened
I just started doing school I was only seven
I know my peers can relate when I say thats when we all had it
Happiness love peace a drive of a young little savage
But that was taken from me
I'm trying to heal through time but impatient with me
Till this day I still feel the way he creeped up on me
He took off my clothes in the shower and told me it's just you and me
I told him no He shoved me against the wall and started punching
Helpless af He took out his dick and told me start sucking
He saw when I was other kids I was still struggling
He saw that I was always down deep down I'm suffering
That rapist looked me in eye and taught me how to act in public
The same coach with evil eyes and devil's words to encourage
Me to pretend that I I do love it
And every time the team's away that's when I do want it
That's what he made me believe
He told me that i always wanted this I was just too naive
Till this day what I see in the mirror is what he sees
I'm his sex slave and that is what he means
But this is a story for another day
I'm looking for the right words I don't know what to say
I hope I live to tell this story for another day
Sometimes time doesn't have timing and that's all for today
