There’s a chemical in my head that was there once but now it’s dead
Defunct emotion and confused perception, a pained expression
Hurt to feel so I declined, never meant to be so unkind
Hiding from the shadows existing within my mind
Someone asked me if I was content with the way things were in my world
Don’t you want to taste forever? Hold life in the palm of your hand?
Don’t worry about the hearts you’ll break, the dreams you’ll throw away, you’ll have brothers in
sorrow
He said you might as well die today, why wait for tomorrow?
Following the steps of beat-down and broken men
Wading through the consequence of problems I’ve created for myself
I’m lost I’m lost
Searching for the person I was before I forgot what it meant to be in control
Of myself, and not of everything else around me
It’s time to let go, it’s time to free myself from these chains
No more relying on empty promises built on torment
By others more crippled than myself
No more lowering myself to the level of the walking dead
I’ll claw my way out if I have to on hands and knees
To remember what life was like when I used to be me
And not a shell stuck in a haze
A clarity worth more than gold
This time I won’t throw that away
My future lasted longer than the devil told me it would
And now the structure of the life I’ve neglected comes crumbling down
I’m left with the ashes and rubble and now I have to start from nothing again
Maybe I’ll get it right this time
I’ll figure out what I’ve been missing
