I feel trapped behind these walls about to lose it
The city skyline is starting to look like a cruise ship
I have ambitions, but things ain't really moving fast enough
So I hide in smiling faces going through shit
Hide in smiling faces going through shit
I hide in smiling faces going through shit
Hide in smiling faces going
Yeah, hide in smiling faces
Yeah I'll fess up, competition's contagious because the only time they check
For rotten tomatoes, is when I'm stomping faces telling them to ketchup
You don't want to be in my place if knew it, isolated
Pain inside, face of a man desperately tryna change shit
It's like i died, desires, bones, emotions, hopes went to satin
Sometimes it's so hard to make it through the day
I think, could this be hell? but then alarm clocks awakes um
Feel like a rat trapped in a cage, no peace, insane
Morning noon and night the banging, but not to my favorite tune
Too early for the hate and stares, I just grin and take um
Soon as I'm downstairs, they're asking for a dollar
For liquor stores and lotto, throw it all away to do it all tomorrow
Setting stays the same like a sitcom that couldn't give a f*ck
Saying where in Sodom, feeling forgotten
I relate, to the poorest with lack of resources
But the rawest of New York, I'm tryna change fate
I'm resourceful, but you can give ya best effort still be on bottom
Not for lack of skills or work ethic, see I got um
Show up in top form, blow the top off, no exactly
What I'm fighting for but the right door still ain't knocked on
I feel trapped behind these walls about to lose it
The city skyline is starting to look like a cruise ship
I have ambitions, but things ain't really moving fast enough
So I hide in smiling faces going through shit
Hide in smiling faces going through shit
I hide in smiling faces going through shit
Hide in smiling faces going
Yeah, hide in smiling faces
Had resentments for years, but dropped um, atomic bombs
They only blow up, or hold my time up for my response to um
But anybody looking at me like they swear I got it, or
Automatically thinking that I'm part of the problem f*ck that
Grandma grandpa were immigrants, my mom worked two jobs to see
Her kids get fed, didn't have shit and been on bottom
To the president, let them dream, don't talk it away, just them teens
Who making their way through D.a.c.a, know what it is to work hard on dreams
Aim these flames like a rocket off paper to say what I gotta
To make a statement of pain know a lot can relate
Break um off break they been on with their arsenal
Explain darker days with honesty, watch the crowd get locked in
Mic Handz said that was undeniable, I try to ride those highs not park them
Why try when nothing goes on after a while, go to a dark place
I can't stop it, grab bottles, mad shots, opportunities
I busted my ass for, showed up half cocked
Focused on my problems and resentments, people messing
With my life outside this rap, roast um on a spit, I'm tryna
Numb these triggers and get back to mine, these words I spit
But I feel shit closing in, so I travel to the city to escape
I started staying in, but chasing shit don't erase these triggers, just makes um bigger
I feel trapped behind these walls about to lose it
The city skyline is starting to look like a cruise ship
I have ambitions, but things ain't really moving fast enough
So I hide in smiling faces going through shit
Hide in smiling faces going through shit
I hide in smiling faces going through shit
Hide in smiling faces going
Yeah, hide in smiling faces
It doesn't matter what I have to give, the talent's lost, the sacrifices
If I don't take this time to rewrite the actual cause
Of some of my troubles, my part in them and what it cost me
She said I'm the strongest person I know and deserve better, unfortunately
Got addicted to this liquor like these letters, revenge
On people fucking with my life instead of gettin it
If I told you what I'm thinking probably think I'm stupid
When I'm tired of all douche bags and inconsiderate fools
Picture a train with no sides riding um through the tunnels
All of them having to fight from being grinded into pulp of human
Am I gonna make it where I want, forsaken by my art
Or be stuck in the misery of this world that shit's just crazy at the start
Of every day, how you supposed to make it
When they just keep investing in the few who made it
Did you know it was a fight to get CBS to Invest in Julio Eglasias
If you misconstrued this shit for some crude bitching
Guess i should cool it myself, think of my sister
Who missed this gift we call life, born with Marfans Syndrome
Died in open heart surgery, no tries, no broken heart
Can't talk about untold hurts, loves, or this part
I feel trapped behind these walls about to lose it
The city skyline is starting to look like a cruise ship
I have ambitions, but things ain't really moving fast enough
So I hide in smiling faces going through shit
Hide in smiling faces going through shit
I hide in smiling faces going through shit
Hide in smiling faces going
Yeah, hide in smiling faces
