I'm twiddling my thumbs
Don't know what comes next
Popped inside my phone
I see a new text
My heart's pounding fast
Beating out my chest
Never sleep at night
I never can rest
Every time I close my eyes you pop into my head
And sometimes when I close my eyes I wish that I was dead
One-shot put a bullet thru my fucking head
Inhale exhale take my final breathe
Fight with myself
Fighting every single night
Say I'm fine
But I'm not
Not even in the slight
Running out of words
I don't know what I say or write
I could never tell the difference
Never know what's wrong and what is right
Fight with myself
Fighting every single night
Say I'm fine
But I'm not
Not even in the slight
Running out of words
I don't know what I say or write
I could never tell the difference
Never know what's wrong and what is right
And I can try
To open up to you
To try and tell you the truth
But when I do, go mute
This feeling in the air is nothing new
It's something that I gotta get used to
I struggle with my thoughts I cant break thru
I don't know what the f*ck I've turned into
If I open up my mouth I hope you know that I'm not shutting up
If I ever get invited to parties I'm not showing up
I promise to my family and my brothers that I'm going up
I don't know why you're texting my phone cus' I don't give a f*ck
RBF, got resting bitch face
Filled my heart up with hate
Fucked me up inside my head
I know I made a mistake
RBF, got resting bitch face
Filled my heart up with hate
Fucked me up inside my head
I know I made a mistake
Fight with myself
Fighting every single night
Say I'm fine
But I'm not
Not even in the slight
Running out of words
I don't know what I say or write
I could never tell the difference
Never know what's wrong and what is right
Fight with myself
Fighting every single night
Say I'm fine
But I'm not
Not even in the slight
Running out of words
I don't know what I say or write
I could never tell the difference
Never know what's wrong and what is right
